Lately, I've been feeling pretty down on life. Not that life isn't nor hasn't been great to me so far because it really has. Things are really great when I come home from work. I greet my wife, my daughter and my dog. I have a comfortable home and plenty of food in the refrigerator. I have been introduced to the waves in Sweden and to my delight; I retired my retirement in surfing. When the Baltic has frozen over, I ski, ride my snowmobile, ice fish, grilla korv, eat kolbullar and just have a nice time and it is these times that life suits me just fine.

The problem I have discovered is that when I have to get ready to go back to work, my view of life becomes a dark tunnel. The area I live in is jam-packed full of Sweden's version of rednecks. Have you ever seen Pistvakt or Jagaren? Anyway, at the fika breaks the conversations revolve either around talking a bunch of trash on anyone not present in the room (unless they walk in during the conversation and it's then everyone is "best friends" with them) or very long-winded stories about tractors. How old they were when they first drove a tractor, trashy stories about others who've tipped in a tractor, or about the latest tractors and the highly technical hydraulic systems the new ones have. To be honest, a guy from Orange County (Los Angeles), California doesn't really have too much to add to these conversations nor does he care to participate. The most ironic thing is that I now have a license to drive a tractor.

I realized that the dark tunnel is my job. I didn't need a PHD for that conclusion but I was in denial. My wife asked me if I knew what I wanted to do. I thought about this for a long time and couldn't think of anything. I don't want to do anything. I guess it's being burnt out but I don't feel burnt out when I'm home. So it was when I came to this enlightenment that I need an employer who pays me to do whatever I want to do! Yeah, that's right! If I feel like lying in my bed all day with chip crumbs all over the sheets, I'll get paid for it. If I want to go surf in Hawaii, my "job" will pay for the flight, hotel and meals as well as my pay and added family separation pay. I'd be able to bring along with me my friends who will pose as "entrepreneurs" or "consultants".


I'm still in pursuit of this employer and I have no idea where to find them. I would be a great employee and I will never take any vacation time. The job will be my life, and my life will be the job. I'll even put in overtime and fill in for others when needed.

If any of you know where I might find this kind of employer, I would appreciate it very much if you can point them into my direction.

Thanks!

Try the swedish government, lots and lots are on a program called A-kassa;)

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Part 1. I sympathize greatly with your dilema dude - One flash of an idea I had just the other day was that I could sell the rights to the story of my life right now instead of someone else doing it when I'm dead . Great idea albeit with just a few small details to work out ........

Part 2. I was working in a socially comparible situation when I finished my boat building education and started working at Vindövarvet on Orust. I fell into a violent phycosis in the middel of the night and just packed my shit and left the next day. Since then I avoid at all costs doing anything that isn't "in tune". I simply turn my back on assignments that made me fearfull, or stressed. I left a project just a month ago that cost me 15,000:- and forfitted about 40 desperate hours of work for a bitch named Malou Berg. If anyone runs accross her avoid her like aids ....... often life present new solutions if you throw out the bad ones ...

ErikG skrev:
Try the swedish government, lots and lots are on a program called A-kassa;)

yeah man, I totally thought about that one.. however, the whole traveling around with my "consultant" friends wouldn't work out. I need something a little more steady too.. A-Kassa deflates over time. Maybe if we all get fired in the same month, it could work out for a while. I'll start breaking more expenssive things at my job starting Monday.

Gazzer skrev:
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Part 1. I sympathize greatly with your dilema dude - One flash of an idea I had just the other day was that I could sell the rights to the story of my life right now instead of someone else doing it when I'm dead . Great idea albeit with just a few small details to work out ........

Part 2. I was working in a socially comparible situation when I finished my boat building education and started working at Vindövarvet on Orust. I fell into a violent phycosis in the middel of the night and just packed my shit and left the next day. Since then I avoid at all costs doing anything that isn't "in tune". I simply turn my back on assignments that made me fearfull, or stressed. I left a project just a month ago that cost me 15,000:- and forfitted about 40 desperate hours of work for a bitch named Malou Berg. If anyone runs accross her avoid her like aids ....... often life present new solutions if you throw out the bad ones ...

Yeah, I am all about burning bridges.. you're either with me or against me. If I see Malou, I'll fart in her face and pee on her leg and then push her face down in the mud and take a steamy crap on the back off her head.. By then I should be light enough to outrun the cops.

ha ha ha ha !!! - don't buy her stupid records either!!

I'de make a torrent out of her stuff so people could download it if it was any good but its just crap so why bother ..

Det hade varit kul att få veta lite mer om de där traktorerna!

Well It would have been fun to get to know a bit more about those tractors!

I totally agree to that new job you have invited. Before that job comes around I have a word of advice, its all about pretending and fooling yourself. You have to fool yourself that what you are doing is very fun and importent and meaningful! Its hard to pretend when not taking action and mind only runs. Take action and fool yourself bigtime.

Right now I am fooling myself it is going to be so fucking funny and meaningful and GREAT to go to workie!